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> new poetry
> friendly folks i never met in person
> sashay red
> nail polish
> borrowing sea salt and what that means to me
> the hours that i sleep
> face-making. cheeks filled with air.
> the opportunity to learn
> the opportunity of the moment. recent events making room discussion and opening ways of thinking /giving attention to what otherwise feels unquestioned
> the pit in my stomach
> the compassion of my somatic practitioner
> pumpkins
> experiencing fruits i didn't know existed

happiness is finding the missing mo willems book

> stuffed animals that talk to one another
> loving
> the opportunity to connect with friends from far away places
> good communication
> a kitchen stocked with great foods
> knowing exactly where to look
> being kind to myself and seeing the great work that i am doing
> anticipation of celebrating with friends
> soft incandescent lamps. you transform.
> passing things along to enjoy vicariously
> scars

inhabiting

the vulnerability that comes from being in body, knowing all the resources around me.

collaboration.

fat permanent markers.

old songs.

the romance of baseball.

essex.

containers

x the idea of a dog
x my sibling. her telling me to get a dog
x new friends, so many it's overwhelming
x old habits that shake me, but remind me of the work i have to do
x having enough resources to be in communication with folks far away
x how the woman who scanned my items at the store made deals with me for unlabelled items and gave me serious discounts -- i have so many new plants!
x the typewriter that lanie gave me so long ago, on my desk, love it so
x having people in my cohort who i feel like understand me and who i want to hang out with
x the subjective nature of my education

i am worth it.

x how magic exists everywhere
x all those who help me recognize it's existence

healers. patient, passionate healers.

zines. mental health cookbook.
best fucken friends. damn i'm lucky.

no words appreciation

my therapist jan2010-aug2011. her gift.
the wind in the trees for always being there.
my walls thus far...half-painted (read: 2 walls of 4) "mermaid green"
worn, this-was-my-father's-so-it's-ridiculously-soft cotton shirts peak out drawers left ajar.
knowing that it is alright to not be settled yet.
my mother. all her effort.
my wrists and what they call me toward, ground me in my commitment.
all the food i ate today.
happy coincidence at work.
new opportunities.
summer.
a maybe vacation?
knowing i am loved.
chipped nail polish.
a dream about my dog to be.

community near and far. friends. family.
all that helps me see the bigger picture. all that helps see myself.
music. sweet music.
being handed flowers on the street.
earl grey tea. chai.

choosing to believe the universe conspires toward awesome

the sun and the breeze that gently sang me awake this morning.

i have an awesome life, i see it, fuck, thanks universe.

coffee. bed. owning a ridiculously awesome digital camera. speaking from the
heart. electrelane. having a car that transports me to the redwoods. letters and
letter writing. interlibrary loan which brings me pretty books including
gestalten press. bodies. letterpress. the creatures of the ocean that i don't
even know exist. pens for the right occasion. house plants. sharing meals with
loved ones. dancing.

love surrounds and when i choose to see it i am awe struck.